Take a good look at it now. Walk around, pick it up, and check it out.
We were wandering around an old château for the afternoon. As we walked into the games room, 3 pairs of eyes scanned the room and settled on the chess set.
“What’s this game dad?”
“Can we play it?”
“Look, there’s a horse”
“That’s chess, it’s a pretty difficult game, I don’t know about playing it. It’s hard. And it’s long, It’ll take ages and we want to see some other things”
“But you can show us dad”
“Well… I don’t know…oh ok, we’ll show you how it works but we can’t play a proper game because we want to go to the madeleine making demonstration in the dungeon kitchen right?”
The kids and Nathan sit opposite. It’s them against me, just for a demonstration. And as Nathan starts pointing and describing the pieces to the children I watch Antigone’s face, defiantly, cautiously looking away. I see her internally analysing the situation, not as to how to play, but rather if it’s even worth starting.
I do that with life. I do that often. It’s too hard, I don’t know how, I’ll probably fail, someone else can do it better than me, it’s too much work, I won’t do a good job.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid;do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
But more often I wonder why I chose to start in the first place. From taking 4 grumpy kids to the playground or trying to make a family day-trip to a nearby town, to trying to organize French government forms, or moving countries a few times over. Why? It’d be so much easier and safer to have just not started in the first place.
Sometimes the game is just a lot harder than I thought it would be, I make mistakes, I can’t see what my options are, I don’t know it well enough to be able to plan ahead and even when I do my plans usually get stopped in their tracks and then it’s too late to change. I don’t know what’s going to happen.
And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
Kody’s gone off to play on the piano but the older two are focused. I watch as Tiggy looks at Nathan, “You’re on my team right, Dad?” and with a smile on her face she picks up the piece he pointed to, moves it where he shows her and starts out on a seemingly impossible task with confidence.
Thankfully, in the game of life, I have someone on my team too.
With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.